::AJWAD GEDIXSSSS::

another day has passed me by yet i'm still with my old habits and attitudes..doing nothing all day long..wasting time by sleeping and cuddling under my sweet comfy little quilt..aiyo...xleh jd kan..but i do not know what else can i do when i'm not having any class or lectures to attend.. oooo GOD...i'm bored to death right now.. humm, last nite i phoned my mom..we had a little chat about my current life. a little bit of gossiping going on last nite and we ended our conversation by me, asking my littlest brother to speak with me on the telephone...n dgn bannganya aku pun ckap kt dia..dia refers to AJWAD.

me : adik, kak pie ni..cheq dok wat apa?
ajwad:kmi xbt apa la..dok rehat2 ni..awat?
me : ooo..xaihh..kak pie sja nk tnya hampa, hampa dah g tgk belum Incredible Hulk?kak pie p tgk dh..be.....
ajwad: dh..kami pi tgk dh crita tu..humm kami tgk mughah je.. 5 kupang je..kami p tgk kt makmal komputer arini.best

(n dlam hati aku, aku xsmpat lg ckap crita tu best..kunun aku nk menunjuk la ak dh g tgk crita best n dia dh ketggalan, alih2 dia lg hebat dri aku..so, cra lain untuk "memusnahkan" ego budak kecik ni aku pun bertanya...)

me : hampa pham ka crita tu?dia kn ckap omputih?

(ko tau apa dia jwab???terbakar aku dgan mulut budak ni)

ajwad: mestilah kami pham..kmi pun tau omputih..

(oooo GOD...xnk mengaku kalah wey.. n aku pun sambung...)

me: humm xpela..hampa dh p tgk..kami ingat hampa xp tgk lgi..aaa....

(bru ak nk ckap adik, dia trus potong n ckap...)

ajwad : humm..xpala..hampa ckap ngan mama..kami letih sgt la la ni..kami nk p tdoq..

(waaaaaaa..sentap ak sebentar di situ n selpas tu, berdekah2 ak gelak..)

n aku pun continue the conversation with my mother..n last dh tu, nk muah2 segala la..mak aku ckap.

mama: opie, depa semua kt sini, kirim slam kt opie. jga dir....

(xsempat lgi my mom nk abis ayat, ak terdengar sore2 sumbang dri belakang)

ajwad: mama tipu..kami xsruh kirim slam pun kt opie..ckap kt opie, kmi xkirim slam kt dia..
(waaaaaaaaaa..aku pun blas)

me : mama, habaq kt adik, opie pun xkirim slam kt dia jgk..

(belum sempat mak aku ckap bnda tu kt ajwad, dia trus ckap dah..)

ajwad: habaq kt opie, kami xkisah pun..

hahhahahahha...lwak gila ajwad ni..ak rsa msa ak tgh ckap ngan my mom tu, dia x g tdo pun..mest dia melekapkan telinga dia kt phone tu jgk..hahhahaha...nway, perbualan ak yg sebentar itu telah berjaya membuat ak terlupa sebntar msalah2 yg ak ada di sini..best jgk bila gaduh ngan ajwad ni..dia mmg xbleh kalah..hrus menang setiap masa..n aku pun sma jgk..hrus xbleh klah..biarla..kakak ke adik ke..ak mmg xksah..mmg best pun gdh2 ni..N satu lgi, ajwad ni jgkla yg selalu bt ak happy pun..i love him very much!!! hahhahaha..sekian..=)

::HAHHAHAHAH...SILLY ME::

okes..nk tau bnda silly apa yg aku bt arini..bkn arini sgt la..lebey kurang 1 jam lepas..

• ak tgh dgar mp3 ak n suddenly ak terdengar lgu yg prnah aku dedicate kt seseorg..lgu nye adalah if it's loving that you want by rihanna..so ak mcm tergembira lebey n melompat2 gitew..yela.. i thought dj radio kt australia ni psang lgu tu..mmg sgt magic la kot..sbb lgu tu dh lma..hahhahaha..msa berjalan smbil berjoget dgar lgu tu, ak pun realise..HELLO...U R LISTENING TO UR OWN PLAYLIST IN UR OWN MP3..HRUSLA ADA LGU FAV KO..BONGEK.hahhahahhaha..lihat kebongekkan ak..hahhaha
• ak nk tkar layout kt blog ni..kunun nk edit items la..yela..sebab blog sutera maya xleh retrieve dr sini..hrusla ak tkar link yg betol kn..so semasa ak hndak tukar tu, ak g tekan je clear elements..so dgn bgganya ak ingat that link which doesn't work will be erased..alih2, sume skali dh xde..hrusla aku bt satu persatu blik links yg ada kt blog ni..hahhahahhaha..kunun bijak IT gitew..bgga..hahhahaha
• ak, fat n awan telah mendapat anugerah pemecah rumah berjaya malam ni..yela..we all dh g curi segala harta yg ada kt rumah ats dn menukar gntikan brang2 burok kiteorg dgn yg bru..so, dh cntikla bilik2 kami gitew.hahhahahhaa..
• n, the latest..bru je ak dpat..ida nk suruh aku nyanyi ngan dia msa masca..GUYS, NYANYI OK..SUFYANA MENYANYI????.. pernah dengar ke such things?no aite???what on earth ida ni pikiaq smpi boleh ada nama ak dlam list nk menyanyi dia..hello kalau sore ak sedap cam mariah carey ke apa ke..ok la..ni mcm burung gagak je..slap2 berdarah telinga ak n org yg dgr sore ak..hummm..camne ni????xcukup ke ngan kebongekkan aku sekarang???haruskah ditambah lgu kebongekkan ini dgan memalukan diriku secara besar-besaran?

aihhhh.....

WHAT IF???

1. what if i am not a girl instead i'm a boy?what will i look like? what kind of girl will i be interested in?what kind of boy will i be? will i be a sissy boy? will i be a tough boy? will i be a boy who always breaks girls' hearts or will i be the boy who always be the broken hearted one???what if...
2. what if i am born to the family which has everything? i mean a family which does not have any money problem at all. money is not a matter in the house. honestly speaking, money is like a tissue in the house. will i be the type of person who doesn't like shopping?because, people with money, always be the kind of people who don't appreciate life.. not all..but some of them..will i be like PARIS HILTON??hahhaha.. wonder2..will i be able to know the importance of money in this life like i do know now???i don't know..
3. what if i am the only child in my family?will i be happy like i do now? will i be lonely? will i miss the presences of sisterhood and brotherhood? will i be wanting younger sisters or brothers from my parents??? (humm..i don't want more brothers or sisters in my family now because i beileve the family that i have now is already an ideal family)..
4. what if i am not a bright type of person? what if my highest education will just be SPM or lesser than that, maybe PMR? where will i be now? what will i do at the moment i write this entry??emm..i wonder will i be a married girl if i do not further my study after completing my PMR or SPM?aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhh..i don't know what will i become if i am not here...i really mean it.. i have no skills or specialties that will make me quite a functional person..luckily i have the opportunity to come here..i'm grateful..really am..
5. what if i am a beautiful, smart, polished, gorgeous, ravishing, angelic character but a sexy girl??hahhahaha.. i now.. this "what if" will be a wild dream for every living girl in this world...but it is just a "what if"..hahhaha.. what if i am that kind of girl? will i still be interested in the same guy(S) i am now?hahhaha..note the "S"..will i be the type of person i am right now or will i be even more bitchier than now??humm..will i have lotsa frens??will i have lotsa admirers? hhahahha.. i guess, iw ill never fin out about this one..after all i cannot change the way i am now. but still i am grateful for it.. at least i have an operative brains, workable two hands and two feets..
6. what if i am not a malaysians, maybe some other citizenships???australian??american??tongan?? hahhahaha??fijian??? i don't know..u name it..i will be it..because, it it just a "what if".. hahhahaha.. humm.. wonder what will i look like?what will i be speaking out from my mouth? what will i be eating???oolart???eeeeeee..... geli.. geli..eeee.. what will i be wearing right now? leaves? maybe a bit posh, emm...tiger's skin.hahhahaha..
7. what if i am born maybe thousand years before this moment? humm..what will i be doing right now???i always imagine myself being the kungfu girl in one of the dynasties in china..even more "over" i will be the woman emperor at the time and i will be the one who give orders and commands regarding the military aspect of the nation.hahhahahha..xboley lekeh.. i know that..i know it all along..tp ini kn "what if " je.. my friend, fat once asked me what will i be in the movie "Three Kingdoms", i told her, i want to be the little girl who i know will be a great commander in the future, which is Emperor Ming..and i asked her, what will she be, she said, she will be the kampung girl but the most beautiful kampung girl in the entire village and the hero will definitely marries her once he sees her face.hhahahahha..

humm. i guess i will stop at this 7 "what if"s..hahhaha..lots more to come..but this is the most "what if"s i think when i have my free time..hahhahahha...=)

FED UP!!!

humm..the title itself has already sent a clear message of what i've been feeling lately.. i've had enuff of this long, repeated and boring talk about this person..that person.. i'm sooooooooooooooooooooo tired of it.. so f**k out..i am here not to listen to ur life story let alone ur whatever story.. i'm soooooooooooo soooooooooooo fed up with all that things..i'm okay as long it's not too much.. u have taken all the spaces inside me and has made me listen to all the craps that you feel like i am interested to know about..or maybe you must have felt that i will die if i do not know what the craps are...ok, FYI, i don't give a f***ing damn about those craps.. satisfied?????eeeeeeeeeeeee....gram betol aku...saiko!!!saiko!!!saiko!!!

i have had enuff problems, so don't you come and put some more burden on my shoulders..i don't know how long i can take it..i really don't.. i have come to the point that i cannot tolerate those unnecessary things anymore..so go away..!!!!i have my own things to look at..

ok, i would like to end this blog, with a calm heart..wish me luck!!!i'm not that angry but maybe the words are bit harsher..but i couldn't help it..sorry..

what is the problem????

humm.he told me the other day that he had to go to some place to do some ground work..so i told him, "Ok" as long as he will always be with me..so he said "ok, i will try my best but i can't promise you to be by ur side 24/7 as i don't know whether or not the place will have good reception. so i told him, "ok, i understand"...

but clearly now, i don't understand because, i sent him a couple of messages and in my sent items folders, it is stated near all the messages "SENT"..humm. i don't understand about this..ok, my positive mind tells me to believe that mybe even at the place where there is no reception, i can always sent messages and the messages will magically arrived at his phone, he can read them but the bad thing is he cannot even reply one of the messages even if he badly wants to reply it..humm..poor thing.. ok, my negative mind tells me that i have to ignore him as well as he, himself has no efforts or whatsoever in replying my messages. go to hell with the reception, if i can send him messages, he too can send me messages. right?am i right??

ok, the second thing that i really don't understand about this situation now is that, i tried to call him a few times and surprisingly, i got to hear ringing tones from his phone and shockingly, not even once he picked up the phone..humm..aihhhhh..my positive mind keeps telling me that maybe, he is busy with his ground work and he doesn't even have the slight amount of time to pick up my call. maybe, he keeps his mobile phone away from him n when i call him, he is not with the phone, so he couldn't pick up the phone..humm i sincerely hope that what i am forced to believe is true..humm, my negative mind tells me that he doesn't want to talk to you, so you should not disturb him with ur call and go find ur own life..he doesn't want to hear ur voice n he has silenced his phone so that he cannot hear it when it's ringing. he doesn't want to talk to u and he pretends to be busy or maybe he lies to you about the place has no reception at all..(humm, i wonder how i can get through to his phne but he doesn't get through with mine. am i being the one who is at the isolated place????)..oo GOd, i hate this....

ok, now, that i have poured all the dilemma in this post??so, now, what is the problem anyway????i don't know..anyone??

LEave Me Alone (i'm LonelY)..huhuhu

humm. i had a wish that i wanted to feel how it feels like when i am alone. now, the wish has come true and i really don't like how i feel at the moment..but i know, it surely will go away..but along the time that i have to be alone with myself, humm..definitely i will go senseless and demented over that period of time..hahahhaha..lucikly, i always have friends who will always be there beside me and cheer me up..hahahhahaa.. (hopefully)..finger crossed..humm..

recently, i have nothing to tell. nothing special. nothing interesting. nothing seems to interest me and the list goes on..hhahahha..n the list will have nothing..penin2..

bubbye..sya mhu mkan n main game..buhsan..

it's HIS birthday..

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u
happy birthday to my sayang..happy birthday to u..

hum, today is my sayang's birthday..emm sadly, i do not have the chance to post all the thingsthat i want to give him earlier..yer la..semalam bru nk sbuk beli kad kn..tp sya mmg ikhlas pun nk bg bnda2 tu..cuma terlewat skit..hehhehe..my friends said that i'm kedekoottt..yerla..habis beratus kt diri sendiri but i did not buy anything to him..humm..bukanla begitu, tp i did not know what should i buy for him..n when i asked him what he would like to have on his birthday, he said he wants to meet me..tp yg tu xleh la kn..itu lma lg la...hahhaha..so left unresolved.mmg xtau..so ini jela yg mampu disediakan ..emm tp bla nk g post plak kn..aihhh..busy betol hdup artis ni..hahhahahaha...

hummm..Boot's Day!!!hahhaahah=)

emm..arini, kalu korg prsan blog yg lepas, supposedly, i had to do only that certain things that i had listed..anyhow, my plan did change..it had added some flavours in my day and had made my day a beautiful one..hehehhehe..

fat, my housemate, asked me yesterday, what wud i like to do for the rest of yesterday..i answered nothing much..just wanna walk to the city and buy a birthday card for my hubby..coz, today is his birthday..HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAYANG!!!!I LOVE U VERY MUCH!!!

ok, kmbli kpada cite...emm, so fat asked me if she can join the "walking" and i said, yes..absolutely...n we decided to take pictures together and i told her that i feel like i want to wear my boots..n fat told me she had the same feeling too..hehhehe..ni la kisah sebermulanya ari ini..hehhehe...

so, kteorg pun melaram la..cam mak datin rsanye..tp mak datin yg muda la..bkn la yg kerepot tuh...hahhahaha..siap sumenya, kteorg pun g la jln2..n lupa nk gtau..zaim pun ikot jgk..hehhehehe..

n..inilah hsilnya..mcm artis x?aihhh.but i really need to work on my smile and my postures..eeeee.hrus blaja lg ni..lihat ye hasilnya..

hum.this is my pic buddy: fat..sgat hebat kalu berposing..dia le yg nshatkn aku spya jgn buka kaki,,nant nmpak p**_**t..hahhahhaa.keji kan..xpela..at least nshatnye berguna...nmpak la skit keayuan..hheheh=)

i dreamt of nothing ++++++ i'm BoreDddddddd

hehhehee...i dreamt of nothing last nite..beriya2 semalam nk mmp org yg smiling tu..tp xpunnnnnnnnnnnn..hhahahahha...hummm...i'm still on my bed..mlas nye laaaaaaa nk bgn.. i hve nothing to do today...humm.buhsaaannnnnnnnnnnnn.. what i would like today:

• get up from this bed.
• take a shower
• do some treatment to my hair.
• cook healthy meal..yelaaaaa....for a past few days, sya belom mkan nsi lg...n it feels bad.
• humm, walk to the city
• print some pictures
• find some cute birthday card
• head back to post office and mail it to my one
• sleep
• watch movie again
• sleep

buhsan kn???? aaaaaaaaa..i don't know what to do..everyone else is busy with their own life problems..who am i to interfere in it???so better i do things alone..=(

emmm.it Feels Good

hehhehe..i just came back from watching THE HAPPENING..hehhe..i think that the movie is great. from now onwards, i won't hurt trees...hahhahaha.. i love trees..i was restless in the cinema just now. the images were very disturbing and they became even more disturbing when i walked alone at the PRINCHESTER ST just now..eeeeeeee...so scary.. the thoughts of people hanging from the trees really bugging my mind and made me walked like rat..so fast i couldn't remember the dog which always barks at me..hahhahahha

emm..but i feel good. someone smiled at me when i was on my way back home..i gave him a warm smile as well.ish..u have made my day..i love it.hehehhe..i keep on remembering his face and i keep on smiling in front of my lappy..hahhahaha..

for a moment, i really can forget about anything that happens to me now.. i could not remember all the bad things that surround me lately and i just love how i felt for 2 seconds just now..heheheh..

i wish i dream of that guy tonite.hahhahaha...gedixssss.i know, but it's my right okay!!!!hahhahaha..i keep on smiling...even now...hehehhe...=))

I LOVE U SMILING GUY!!!

Verbz- Shopaholic

HEheh..i AccIdenTallY FounD ThiS Song That I bElieve SuitS mE wELl nOw When i broWsed The IntErNet Las Nite...HahAHahah.. I Don'T kNow How To Put Song In mY Blog..hehehe..but just take a Look At the words...HahahhahAAh...I lOike iT..

Calling all shopaholics... where the credit cards
at?!

get ya 5's out
get ya 10's out
get ya 20's out
get ya 50's out...

i'ma shop shop til i drop drop
wearin' out a hole in my new high tops
rope chain swinging with my big gold watch
watch me, wish you got a casio, not a swatch...
i need to marry a man from belair
who can buy me de beers until the ladies is cleared
tryina get on the rich list
with 3 figure digits
like 'doctor doctor, is my purse annorexic?'
i hit the store to see see whats happenin'
clean out the shelves and leave with the manequin
80's queen, 3 finger rings...
yeah i can do it all with a lillte loose change...

i'm a shopaholic (x3)
and i'm outta control!

i'm a shopaholic, better take away my wallet
nothin in ma pocket and i'm out on a roll
i'm a shopaholic better take away my wallet
pockets got nothin' and i'm outta control!

hold up! you better hire a stylist
thought ya looked tight but the mirror was lyin'
like midas- i got a rope chain, a dope chain...
girl you been had,
they musta gave you the broke chain
my wallet may be empty but my closet is full...
and i can't be a fashion victim if it hasn't been done

i'm a shopaholic (x3)
and i'm outta control!

i'm a shopaholic, better take away my wallet
nothin in ma pocket and i'm out on a roll
i'm a shopaholic better take away my wallet
pockets got nothin' and i'm outta control!

if ya have expensive taste
never let a new fit go to waste
even if ya closets got no space
baby gotta stretch that dollar bill!

can't put a price on style
even if ya cash flow's on the last mile
we ain't talkin vanity
ju ju just originality
stretch that dollar bill!

i'm a shopaholic (x3)
and i'm outta control!

i'm a shopaholic, better take away my wallet
nothin in ma pocket and i'm out on a roll
i'm a shopaholic better take away my wallet
stretch that dollar bill!

HahhaHAhaha..What Do U thInk????Anyone???

:::sSssHhoPpIngggGG:::

tHE pICTUre aBOVE dESCRIBES aLL tHE tHINGS tHAT i dID DURING tHE LAST fEW dAYS...HAHAHHAAH=)



ThingS tHat i Had BoughT during the LaST Few Days:

• 1. Red VerSaCe
• 2. SandAl
• 3. NuetrOgEna FaciAl WasH
• 4. NuEtrOgeNA MoisturiSer
• 5. WinTer CoAT
• 6. 2 GueSs HAnDbagS
• 7. GuEss PurSe
• 8. BooT
• 7. 2 Jay Jay jEaNS
• 8. 1 lEvi'S
• 9. TrAVEl Bag FunK Me
• 10. Rip Curl Watch
• 11. Glove
• 12. eARRiNGS
• 13. BJU2 aT cOTTON ON
• 14. bJU2 aT JAY jAY (I LoVE tHE bLACK sHIRT...aDA GmBAR pAK taM)
• 15. sPOrTSGIRL bAG
• 16. bED sHeEt
• 17. kEDs

EMM...i GUess I have TO stOP Here..DAH xigTLA..BUt i WILL certainlY REMEMber THE ConseQUENCES for These ACTIONs of MINE when I SwiPED the banK Card AT The eFTPOs mACHINES at eVERY stoRE I visiTED..hahHAHhaha..




AFter THIs very MOmenT, i hAVe To reSOrT TO meTIcULOuSlY sPEND tHE lITtLe aMOUNt oF mONEY lEFT fOR mY fOOD.. oR eLSE I HAVE tO lIVE oVER tHE thINgs THAT i HAD aLREADY bOUGHT..ISH.....EMM, fROM mY caLCULATiON, i GuESS i HAVE tO LiVE WitH mAGgI mEE fOR tHis MoNtH aS i haD sPENT aLL tHE mONEY tO LiVE luXURIOUSLy DUrING laST wEEK..haHAHAH..kUNUn2 nYA ReWArd MySELF aFTER tHE VERY aDAMAnT tiME dOING tHE aSSIgNMENTS..haHAHAHAH...DH LEPAS bALA iTU, sKARANG kNA PLAK bALA sHOPPING..hAHHAHAHA...PaDAN mUKa DiRI sENDiRI...




hUMM, BuT gUESSSS wHAT, MY paSSioN iN wATCHiNG moVIES sTILL NoT faDE aWAY aFTER thIS vERY MOmENT..oNE reASON THaT mAKES mE hAVE, MUST ANd shOUlD cONsUME oNLY mAgGI meE FoR THiS mONth, IS ThaT I wANT To WAtCH EVERY sINGLE MOvIE tHAT IS RELEAsED IN ciNemA..hUMM..ENuFF sAID..MY MoM aLWAYS TELL me THAT, iF wE wANT sOMETHING so BADLY, wE SHOULD IN rETURN, wiLLinG To aCCEPt WHatEVEr cONSEqUENcES THAT mAY oCCUR afTERwARDS..HAHAHHAHA..




oKAY, hAVE tO sTOP NoW,MY eYES bARELY OPen yET i WAnT To POST tHIS bLOG..hAHAHHA..sORRy fOR ThE wRITING OR whATSOEVER..mYBE THERE arE gRAMMatICAL MISTAKES hERE AND tHERE, BuT ThaT'S Life.HAHAHHAHAHAHA...meNGArUt!!!!gudNiTE

IT ENDED YESTERDAY :(

HAHHAHA...look at the title.. ok..senang cite, the madness is not just a madness anymore. it is bigger than that. but i have to restrained my self not to become any "madder" in the mean time(ada ke word ni??? BIARLA!!!)). i have to control myself. but personally, i think it will be hard..hhahahaha..but i will certainly do it.

last nite i went to gp to do my last asgnmnt. but as soon as i sat in front of the comp, my mind went blank, i did not know what to do. i had no idea or whatsoever about the last asgnmnt. my mind was somewhere else. a place i should never be and a place i could not ever dream of going...i sat far from jannah, my buddy who accompanied me to gp coz i knew i was going to cry last nite, and crying i was...=( i hate this feeling. i hate it.i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. it's been so long i did not have this kind of feeling and last nite the feeling came back to me and it made my heart cry out loud. benci aku!!!!

so SUFYANA, FORGET ABOUT IT!!!! GO FIND UR OWN LIFE.!!!! N STOP BEING SO PATHETIC!!!!

OK, THAT'S ALL, SO KNOW THAT BY KNOW, THE MADNESS IS OVER. NO MORE MADNESS AND I HOPE NO MORE MADNESS!!!