::HARI YANG B**I::

emm..aku bgun seperti biasa..emm not really..arini, ada semangat bru nk mulakan ari dgn bnda2 yg baik..so aku bgun awl la..bgn solat subuh..sebelum ni ya Allah..liat betul nk bgun..rsa nya kalu pecah handphone tu berbunyi alarm clock pun blum tentu aku boleh bgun..cam org kta xde motivasi gitewwwwwwww...so hrusla xbgun..Ya Allah..ampunilah aku YA Allah..=)..humm..so pendek cite, aku bgunla..berkobar2 nk bt baik arini..arini xnk dh mngata2 org..xnk dh umpat keji pn. pantt..bnyakla azam bru ak..humm..tp itu sume azam okessssssss...xde stu yg berkesan pun..

ok, ak start g klas cam besa..tp awal la kali ni..as usual..petanda pertama yg menunjukkan ari aku bakal menjadi hampeh ialah bila aku smpai kelas n dgr org tnya psal task yg Jo bg..ok,org2 rumah kt West End ni bnyak plak idealogies nye psal task ini..bnyak org mempunyai pndgan berbeza trhdap task ini termasukla aku..aku ingat Jo minta bt 1 PAGE pndgan kta terhadap ideas presented in that particular reading..Fat plak, as usual, ignorant cam aku jgk, ingat Jo srh bt SUMMARY n the last one school of Aim..Aim plak ckap Jo srh bt ONE PARA REASONS why we should buy that journal..so, kt sini, nmpak sgtla dlam stu kelas itu ada yg belajar n ada yg x..memula, aku yakinla, aku yg belajar sbbnya, kunun, last week ak tumpu perhatian giteww.......hahhahaha..yakin diri adalah harus..hahhaha..sehinggalah aku smpai kelas n org pun ckap psal task ni..so bila dgr bebaik, ternyata AIM YG BETUL!!!!.hahhahaha..tnpa membuang msa, hrusla aku malu..giat okes..bt one page..padahal dia nk 1 para je..oo God..lg stu, aku kn suka bergaduh skit ngan Aim, hruslah aku malu trhadap kekalahan ini..n Aim tnpa membuang msa berkata "KAN AKU DH HABAQ, HAMPA XMAU PERCAYA"..so, terkalah la aku disitu....

n kekalahan itu xberakhir disitu..arini, cam biasa, aku pkai la bju bunga2 kecik aku..dgn BELT okes...aku beli belt itu dr MElbourne..so, cam rsa kalu xpkai rugila..bukan senang kan..humm..tp apabila si Hidayah ni buka mulut psal babi, aku pun dh gabra..emm xkot..belt aku okesss je..tp dgn pntasnya dayah nk bgi cnth n trus tgk belt aku...n from her face, ak dh tau belt itu babi........sentap aku..tp dgn rsa tidak boleh trimanya, aku pun ckap.."emm..xpela beh, dh pkai, pkai dh..biaq jela..lgpun kalu ak bukak, nmpak cam org mengandung plak"..ye aku tau, itu tdak bgus..itu jahil namanya..tp mcm mna????emm..terpksa la aku mnjadi gembala babi itu (term ini dtgnya dri FAT)...seari okes, pinggang aku berbalut dgn babi..hahhaha..tp at this point of time, ak dh samak dh la...

n seperti biasa, klas2 yg aku g sume pun terasa buhsan..tmbh2 lg, klas media..xthan okes..mta aku mmg brat time tu..aku pun xpsti, syaitan tu dh obese yg thap apa..mmg nk buka mta tu memerlukan stu tenaga yg kuat..ngantukkkkkkkkkkk...putus asa aku..n seperti biasa..adalah manusia keji..mirmo, mambo n stu lgi apa ek???mamu ke??mulu???eh..apa ntah yg pasti keli a.k.a JOBM la.....memula dh pggl aku gembala babi n dh2 tu ada plak yg keji ckap aku kentut dlam kelas..ya Allah..sumpah, aku xkentut okes..kalu x dh lma terberak ni..xde msanya nk tulis2 blog ini.tp yg pasti org yg ckap itu KEJI..hahahhaha...

pstu, adegan semasa di dalam bas...bas itu lambat dn harusla aku n rkan2 lain kena berdiri..so, ksut gedixs ini tdak plak mencengkam lantai bas itu n terhoyong-hayangla aku di situ..n hapir nk jtuh..tp papepun, maintain..xjtuh..cuma cam rumput je..bas belok, aku pun belok la..tp over belok..hahahhaha..papepun slmat smpai umah...

mmm..apa lg ek???xde dh kot..tu jela kot..rsa seperti single plak skang ni.hahhahaha..saiko..sya saiko..sy tau sya saiko..gdnite..

muackkssssssss!!!!

::words, phrases n sentences that bring meaning to my life as they tell the stories of my life::

1. i've been starting to doubt myself..not hugely, bcoz there haven't been mny men that i am interested in, but i do hve the tendency to fall for the ones who will nver be intrsted in me n ones that fall for my charms are gnerally pretty revolting.hahaha..it's true..it happens to me..
2. she has enough self-confidence (or whateva u might call it) to say: "this is who i am..take it or leave it"..aihh. i really hope i can be like that..no matter what i do, i will always think about the other person. regardless whether they are friends , just friends or my one..i constantly try to fit myself in, so that the other person will not be feeling that they are left out..aihh..i don't know.
3. after spending so any years chasing men, i now realize that it's better not to call them. EVER.if you can possibly help it. and that includes calling them back n seriously speaking, i'm really bad at that one...hehehe..it's quite true for myself..even after i seriously vow that i don't wnt to talk to him or at the very least i don't want to chat or see his face gain, i just can't do that.. that's my problem. i know.aihh..recently, i have erased his number from my phone in the false hope tht i will not contact him ever again..but seriously what was i thinking??/i still have his email..ooooooo GOD!!!it's so complicated!!!
4. the advantages of being single. when you're busy socializing and meeting men, it's the best thing in the world and you would not want any other way than being single..but,when all ur single girlfriends suddenly seem to hve their own boyfriends n you're the one who is still be on your own, being single will be as miserable as a sin.. don't tell me you have not ever felt this way...coz if you are, u are being ridiculously-try-to-be-happy-even-when-u-r- not...hehhehe..i'm just saying this out of my personal experience..yep..it's true.one of my reason for not being single is because i don't want to be lonely.n it is also the reason why i still holding on to the relationship which is ready to fall, crash and burn..aihh..i know it's not fair..but i chose to believe it..i don't want to not to believe it..so, that's how i can tell what my love life is..
5. you have to give evry relationship ur all because, if u r going to get hurt, u r going to get hurt, but at least at the end u know that u gave it ur best shot..i'm not sure how true can this be..as for myself..i prefer to do the least.. yes, i know, i'm not being quite a brave here but i choose the way that will not get myself badly hurt.. i prefer to be hurt not badly hurt..i don't know, maybe it's my weakness that i don't seem to care to give my relationship my all, but i have the concrete reason for not doing it.because, if i give my all, what will be left for myself if i ever face the break-up thingy..i'm being selfish here..i know

i think that's all for now..will continue later..still have work to do..ishhhhhhhhh..at the moment.my internet is being so ridiculously very unhelpful towards me, so, hapdet itu adalah sedikit mustahil..hehhehe..sorry..

bye bye..muackkkkksssss

samb::melbourne yg best n at the same time saiko::

huahuahau...ingat x lg entry yg lepas when i told u story about the beginning of my saiko holidei???ni sambungan nye okesss..i sambung okes!!!!! humm..so bermula la perjalanan aku ke colangatta airport..kemain susah nk reach this airport tp berkat kegigihan aku n fat yg telah pun membuat research a week before my departure date, hrusla tiba di airport itueww dgn selamat..humm..spanjang perjalanan naik train n bas nk ke airport tuh..xde bnda sgt la nk crita..korg pun mst dh tau by now yg kalu aku letih, aku msti tido..n kalu tido dlam keadaan letih..hrusla mulutku terbuka.........hahahhaha.hodoh..aku tau hodoh..tp nk bt mcm mna..bkn i yg nk okesssssss......hehhehe..humm..psal boots babi aku itueww,,,aku n ida amik keptusan nk samak kt robina station..hrusla di pagi yg sejuk itu aku n ida terbongkok2 menggali tanah..hahahhaha..pstu masuk toilet n menjadi ala2 kaki mandrem gitewwwwwww..mana x nya..kalu korg xtau psal hal samak2 ni, apa pndgan korg kalu korg nmpak ada two suspicious looking girls tgh menggosok2 tgn di dlam sink dgn menggunakan tanah..bukanla pasir or tanah yg cntik wrnanya..tetapi tanah yg kotor tu..yg kotorlaaaaaaa...apa pndgan nya kalu tidak kaki mandrem?????haaaaaaaaaaaaa..jwab2...

xpela..kira abis kt situ la cite aku di brisbane..so, dh lpas sume check counters ak pun naik la flight..nk g melbourne..flight aku 2 jam je..tp dlm msa 2 jam itu pun aku smpt lg beradu..hahhaha..kaki tido betul la..tp nk bt camne..i letih..hahhaha...smpi je melbourne airport..dh terasa sejuk..sejuk sgat..xthan aku..tp demi gaya, hrus kugagahi jgk..nk bt camne kn..xknla nk sembunyi dlm kpal terbang tu spi pnas..hrus smpi summer aku kt dlam tu..so kluar la..n tetiba bila kluar je dr pintu peswat itu, aku trsa seperti org kya..yela..slalunya ada jln yg menghubungkan psawat ngan bgunan..tp bila naik tiger airways ni kuar je pswat trus kt luar..i mean bkan bgunan..luar tu..yg mcm landasan tu..hrusla aku feeling diva..dgn angin nye..hahhaha..trasa sperti naik pswat peribadi..biarpun rmai org.hahhahaha..xpela..aku pun cont journey aku g amik beg sgala n berpandukan msg yg fat tlah anta b4 this,dieorg akn smpai kt international airport (ak kt domestic jela..private jet x g smpi international.hahhahahah)...so aku pun sibuk la nk cri int. airport plak..elok dh jmpa..bolehla aku berehat2..tetapi..msg yg fat bg selpas itu sgt menyakitkan jiwa n raga aku..flight diorg delay okesssss...............haaaaaaaaaaaaaa..xlarat la nk tggu...memula delay 2 jam..pstu cam aku rsa tmbah 2 jam delay lg..so kesudahannya, aku ni 4 jam berumah di int. melbourne airport.sedey okes........dh mcm penunggu dh aku kt situ..xlarat..nk mkan pun xlalu bila dok sengsorg ni..buhsan..aku ni dh mcm pompuan meroyan..rmbut ni xtaula dh ruapa apa dh msa tu..4 jam ok..aku yg memula "diva" td pun dh bertukar menjadi syr bayam dh..penattttttttttttt.......xlarat.............



humm..tp nsib baikla selpas 2 jam lebey aku tggu, asyi, am n niza dh smpi..so xdela aku tercongek sorg2 kt airport tu..penat la..tp better la skit bla ada org nk ckap kn..n di kesempatan itu, ada la jgk aku manfaatkan msa itu utk bergedixs bersma camera bru asyi..so ok la..not so bad la..tp aku ttap dh jd bayam..xde apa yg boleh ubah aku menjadi diva kmbali..period.

hum..dh lpas tggu 4 jam itu, smpila jgk fat n rakan2..hahhaa..spe lg kalu bukan mirmo, sutun n keli..so kiteorg pun bersedia la nk g tmpat penginapan pulak..FYI, msa kt melbourne ni accom. kteorg adalah COFFEE PALACE..class kn nama..tp hrus ingat...ada apa dgan nama..hahhahahhaha..cont. later okies..ak nk g tgk princess diaries plak..bubbye..



hapdet later okes!!!

::FIRST DAY IN THE LAST SEM AT QUT::

huhu..bunyi cam skema2 je kn title for this entry???sbnarnya x ok..hehhe..ok..basically, for this sem, i only have classes for three days only and the most tiring day of all the three is Monday which is today..starting from 8.30am until 9pm i have to present myself at KG..huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..such a long and bored day to be in..mmgla bukan blaja straight..tp hrus ingat..sejak2 umah kt West End ni, it doesn't make sense if i want to go back home n take some rest. ..dh elok rest tuh, tau la apa jdnya..hrusla x pg dh klas after tu..tidolaaaaaaaaaa..hehhehe..so, fat and i pun ikutla cikjan n cikida ni kunun nk blik unilos..tp apa..dh elok mkan kt Myer je n u know what..dl msa yg xseberapa itu..lnyap jgak 30 dol untuk shopping accessories kt DIVA..saiko aku..makan nk budget je..amik yg plg kecik..dh tu ada special offer lak tu..hruslah yg palng murah...tp bila bab shopping ni kan..dia lupa diri sikit..kuar je duit tu..xingat nk smpan2 dh..xingat nk beli yg plg mrah..eeeeeeeee....tensen..kalu ada income ok jgk..ni xde..outcome jes.......hahhahaha...


pstu....dh elok shopping, sume pun start la prasan diva gituewwwwwwwwwwww...dgn accessories yg dibeli td..sorg pun xnk kalah dlam melaram..kecuali cikjan..cikjan baik arini...yg lain sume nk jd diva gitewww...termasukla aku..hahahha..punya sibuk melaram kt unilos itu, aku ni smpai terlupa klas start kul 2..bila aku tgk jam kul 1.23pm, aku pun cam heran la bdak2 ni siap awlnya..xnk rehat dlu ke..aku pun ckap.."wey, sbb apa hampa dok siap2 ni..awl lg..bru 1.23.klas kn start kul 3"...aihhhhhhhhhhhhh...nmpak sgt xready nk ke klas..kelas start kul 2 okes..aku je yg pham klas start kul 3..hahhaha..ignorant..or should we call it BUGILOST..hahhah...new invented term tu..hrus guna selepas ini..hahhaha..dh tu apa lg..lmbt la kteorg ni..dh smpi blok itu, nk cri kelas plak..ya Allah..klas nye xtau nk naik ikut mna..cri tangga xjmpa2..guna emergency stairs la..apa la..last skali jmpa jgk..tp of cos la dh lwat..aihh..fail to impress sudaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...

blaja cam besala lepas tu.not paying attntion is a must..malas aku..........eeeeeeeee...pstu..abis klas..tp kelas itu jela..ada lg kelas kul 6..pnat la............so dgn sejuknya aku ngan fat pun g library..bknla g bca buku or cri resources..g cri tempat berlindung untuk si anak gajah makan..bkanla aku anak gajah itu..fatla.....melantak pizza ok..2 slices..hehehhe...aku as usual la..sembangla..apa lgi nk bt kan...hahhaha..


pstu kul 6 start la klas yg buhsan itu...humm..apa pun xmsuk dlam otak ak ni..blurr je..mta aku pun dh bg sign2 yg dia xblh bkak dh..dh xthan dh..aihhhhhh..tp x jgk msa tu berlalu dgn cepat..tensen tensen..dhla plak..ada makhluk tuhan yg keji di situ(mirmo)..ntahla apa yg dia bt..keji okes..nant aku akn crita kekejian nya ituew...tggu..bnyak sgt ar bnda yg nk cite..xtau nk start dr mna..yg penting KEJI..hhahahahaha


inilah makhluk tuhan yg keji itu..



n skang dh ada kt bilikla..pnat ok..ngantuk sgat..tp memandangkan..cik norton srh aku hupdate slalu..hrusla aku hupdate..untuk tdak mghmpakan hrapan cik norton yg jauh nun di sana..k la..dh ngantuk sgt ni..nk smbg bca MR.MAYBE plak..bye..gdnite...mmmuuuaaacckkkssssss

::permulaan holiday yg menyaikokan:: (tune anda harus mcam dlam cerita doraemon...hahhaha)

humm..i went to melbourne on the 7th of July 2008..okes..kes2 pelik yg tlah berlaku trhadap diriku started even before i first stepped my feet in Melbourne..kt West End ni dh jd dh..pelik n sangat menyampah okesssssss...dlm entry ni, i want to list all the things that i considered being so unfair and ridiculously funny-yet-controverting towards me n my "well-being" during my stay in Melbourne..hahhahahaha




the first thing that happened to me or should i call it the beginning sign of the "saiko" holiday???hehehhe...okies..nite before the day of my departure to melbourne, i couldn't sleep.maybe nervous.maybe not.maybe anxious that i might had overslept or maybe i just couldn't wait to be there.hehehhe..okla..dh xboleh tido tu, aku pun dgan slow nye kuar dri bilik..nape slow???of coz lupa nk gtau ida was sleeping in my bedroom n taqi on the sofa..so hrusla sneaking out slowly..xnk la ggu dieorg tido..humm..aku nk g dapur je pun..nk mkan nsi..suddenly i remembered that at that time, i still have two drumsticks..ayoyo..mna boleh xmkan..rugi okessssssssss..hehhehe..so, aku pun melantakla dgn perut yg besar.........n after mkan...sakit perotttttt la plak..saiko okess..msa tu mmg aku terbayang dh mcm mna muka aku spanjang perjlanan nk ke melbourne..mst mcam org giler yg sedang menahan sakit di perut.........ish..spoil betul ok...aku xtdo smpai ke pgi n akhirnya kul 4.00 pun tba jua...so blhla kejut ida n taqi..xdela buhsan dh aku..about that stomachache, dh okes...bgus2..alhamdulillah..hehhe=)




tp nmpaknya...my good time was not long enough coz...spnjang2 perjalanan nk ke south brisbane station itewwwwwwwww aku asyik terperanjat..terperanjat yg mcm nk luruh jantung ituewwwwwwww..eeeeeeeeeee....kus semangat aku..aku ingat lgi, sedang syok berjalan ada sore2 sumbang dri belakang..yg peliknya aku n ida sore tu ckap assalamualaikum..aku tye2 tu jgk meremang bulu roma..hahhahaha..dan2 rsa nk terduduk kt jalan tu..alih2 ida ckap kt ak.."beh, basikal beh"..aku pun pusing belakang tgk..yela ada basikal..omputih plak tu..mcm mna dia boleh bg salam..konius aku..n aku tnya ida.."ang dgar pape x td beh???" ida ckap "dgar, dia bg salam ke???hahhahaha..xpela..mgkn aku n ida pekak sket wktu tu..tp yg psti bukanla sore makhluk tuhan yg satu lgi ituewwwwwwww..eee.tkut aku..




okies...dh elok smpai train station..smpai awl okessssssssss..hrusla aku, ida n taqi tggu lma..rsanya smpai sebelum kul 5 sedangkan train yg aku nk naik itu kul 5.23 pg..xpela..buang msala kt situ..n tnda2 holiday saiko pun uncul lgi..hujan..hujan okes........tp nsib baikla kiteorg dh smpi dh kt stesen..bgusssssssss..tp yg xbgusnya..sementara tggu train itu smpi, ida pun mnta nk try boots aku..dh aku bg try..mkcik tu pun ckap.."humm..sedap...xrsa sejuk dh pun" aku pun adala jgk terkembang kempis di situewwwwwwww..hahhahah..tp xlama..terus bgai panah, ida pun melalak "beh, boots ang ni kulit babi beh"..aku pun mcm rs xnk percya n aku pun kta "huh???ya ka??ish xknla kot"..dyah kta "betoi beh..ni tiga titik ni.." aku pun dgn prsaan hampa n tdak mahu percya pun tgkla boots itu...mmg betoi pun.......EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE............GERAM AKU OKIESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS..INI YG PALING SENTAP SEKALI ANTARA KEJADIAN2 YG BERLAKU SEMASA AKU HOLIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!..babila plak boots ni..ni yg aku menyampah ni..hello..ak xde boots lain dh..in fact dh xde ksut lain dh yg aku bwa dlm luggage itu untuk holiday tau...eeeeeee....sentap aku..nk tau apa yg aku buat??hehheheh..tggu ok..


humm..that's for now..will write later..bnyak okess...ni bru permulaannya saje.......tunggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggguuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu..hehheheh=)


n FYI, muka aku dh jd mcm ni la sket2..hehhe.geram okessssssssssssssssss,..nk je aku sepak boots tuh..tp dh pkai kt kaki kn..so tndang2 angin je la.......hehheh..

::i don't want to talk about it::

sedey lgu ini..sswai dgn saya sekarang...



I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the colors of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart.
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?
my heart, whoa my heart, this ol' heart.

I don't wanna talk about it, how you broke my heart,
but if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, my heart?
My heart, whoa, my heart.

FRIEND OR "friend"???

humm..recently, lots of things happen to me and honestly speaking, i'm very grateful as these things have opened my eyes about my friends friends who are really friends and friends who are just friend..humm.. and at this point of time, suddenly my mind is struck by this sentient issue and i think the most suitable place to pour my heart about this issue is by blogging. i try to keep it very inexact as possible as i don't want to hurt further those who are hurt by me..hehhe.. what makes them real friends for me?

• A friend ALWAYS comes to the aid of a friend in need.
• A real friend ALWAYS defend one another.
• Real friends ALWAYS welcome and may even impose on one another at inconvenient times. they do not leave their own friends for something or someone else.
• Real friends do not take advantage on one another. They are friends for what they are. Not because they want something from one another or use one another to achieve something that they want..
• Real friends support each other for whatever decision that one may take without even questioning or criticizing them for the way they choose to live their own lives..
• Real friends do not abandoned each other when they face difficulties or when they face happiness..

emm..i believe these describe what constitute real friends to me.. what makes the just friends for me?

• They are there with you when you are happy but sometimes they fail to present themselves when you are sad n whatever excuses that they may give you the real reason will only be because, they do not want to share the hard time with you.
• They tried very hard to be supportive for you but in the end they fail to do so just by supporting you to make the wrong decision in your life..they may not realize it but the truth is the want you to crash and burn by your own decision..
• They try very hard for keeping you from knowing about the good things that happen in their life maybe because they feel that they do not want to disturb you.but the real truth is that, they want to keep the happiness for just themselves and they do not even want to share it with you.so don't bother asking..heheh..but the weird thing is, they want to know every single good thing that happens in your life. you just can't keep it as a secret from them because, if they know about these "secrets", you will be "over"..hahhaha
• They befriend with you because they want something from you. if it is not a tangible thing it may be because of the association. we call it friends with benefits..who knows?only God knows.

throughout my 22 years of living in this world, i have come to learn that we can have many friends but to choose real friends from the friends that we have is a difficult task to do, because it takes us maybe a lifetime to discover it..but, blimey, it can be done..with just a simple incident you can know who you can trust, n who are not. who you can share your secrets with n who can't you, who will always be by your side through good and bad times n who will leave you if u r on the unfavorable sides of things. you can tell by yourself n few repeated events will only provide you some support of your thoughts about them..but you, yourself can really tell who are your friends and who are just your friends.. heheh..what do you think? do u agree with me?