::~apa itu cinta~::

emm..semalam aku de dapat stu blog ni..bila aku bca, mula2 rsa cam nak muntah..aku xpham nape dia guna bhsa kedah yg ksar camtu..dh tu cerpen yg aku bca tu disiarkan kt utusan malaysia plak tu..dlam otak aku, aku pk, mcm mna la agknya cerpen ni boleh tersiar..aku gagahi jgk diri aku untuk aku bca cerpen tu...last2 kali, brula aku pham, apa yg cuba disampaikan oleh penulis..cra dia cam selamba tp ckup dgn mkna..dia tnya apa itu cinta..dia discuss certa n pemahaman ni dri dua contexts..stu, org2 tua yg umor 60 thun tu..yg duduk kt kampung2 n stu lgi, kapel yg muda, yg "kunun"nya tengah hangat bercinta..apa itu cinta????

obviously, org tua kt kampung tu xtau apa itu cinta..n org yg muda, siap berbhasa2 bunga lg nk definasikan apa itu cinta..tp kenyataannya, yg aku pham la..sbnrnya cinta tu xblh nk explain pun ngan words..kita xdapat nk cri the exact words to describe cinta..camtu jgkla klu nk srh aku describe cinta...aku pun xtau aku nk jwab apa..jwapan yg mgkn terkeluar dri mulut aku..mgkn cam sayang..pengorbanan..camtu2 la..

tp bila aku dh bca cerpen tu..aku ca rsa ada definisi bru yg aku boleh ckap psal cinta..ni dlam context, aku ngan azrol la kan..

cinta bagi aku:

1. bila, kita dh janji utk g dating..kunun nk jmpa kul 9..tp psagan kta dh lwat 30mnt..kta pulak terpaksa tggu dkt stesen bas yg penuh ngan habuk2 n asap2 bas..pstu, ada je budak2 muda lain yg mcm ada potensi nk rogol n curi kta..dlam hati kita, dh kluar sumpah seranah dkt psagan kta..npe xdtg2 lg..kta hnya tau msa tu kta mrah..tp kta xsdar sbnrya, msa tu kta bmbg..kot2 le pape terjdi pd psagn kta..n bla psgan kita ckap.."bby, abg dh smpi"..kta pun rncg, nmpak2 je muka dia, kta kna mrah..kna pesan lain kali..punctual skit..tp, kenyataan nya bila nmpak je muka dia..kta xjd nk mrah..kta dh happy..sbb dia dh ada dpan mta..n dia selamat..astu plak, dia pgg tgn kta..n tgk mta kta..smbil ckap.."bby...abg sorry sgt2..bas ni lwat..astu berhenti bnyak2 tmpat..sbb tu lmbt..lain kali, abg xkn bt bby tggu lg"..n bila kta dgr ayt2 ni..kta pun xjd nk mrah..sbb kta tau..dia mmg ikhlas ckap mc tu..mcm mna dia nk control bas tu spya gerak lebih lju or lebih cepat..kalu kta rsau..dia msti lg rsau..mst dia ats bas tu asyik tgk jam je..n bg aku, itu pun consider cinta jgk..itu cinta bg aku..xkra smada kta sdar ke x..tp perbuatan tu mmg cnta..

n..nant aku smbg lg tau..ada bnyak lg..aku rsa itu cinta bg aku..

::~suddenly i miss him~::

haih..td aku ke city..kunun nk beli brang2 buat asgnmnt.meluat la aku,,habiskan duit aku je..kalu xbeli brang2 tu dh lma aku bleh beli ksut yg aku suka itu..tp tu la..nk bt mcm mna kn..dh tggungjwab..hahhahaha..

hemm..msa aku naik bas td, tetiba tergt blik zaman2 dlu bila aku slalu g dating kt seremban..bukannya apa..aku terigt cik biskut yg sllu teman aku naik bas..dia xdela ikut aku blik kl, tp dia akn anta smpi depan pntu bas tu..n slgi bas tu xbergerak, dia xkn pergi..dia tggu je aku kt situ..haih..tym tu, kdg2 rsa sedih je..rsa xnk blik..rsa nk trus je lg dtg kt situ..tp tau2 jela..ipba kan..kalu lwat skit, mti aku..tp dlu pun, bukan aku blik lwat pun..kul 7 dh ada lam blik dh..dh siap mndi n nk g mkn mlam dh..humm..tp xpe..pointnye kt sini...aku terigat bila msa azrol anta aku naik bas tu..rsa sedih..dkt sini, xde sape nk anta aku naik bas camtu..naik la ko sengsorang..ko ada brang bnyak ke..ko blik lwat malm ke..ko hrus naik bas sengsorg..tensen kan..

tp cam xpela..dh nak blik dh pun..lpas ni, aku blh g dating lg..tp, kalu kali ni azrol xnk tman aku naik bas, aku xnk kwan ngan dia dh.hahahhah..

i think it was sweet at that tyme..i liked it, i still like it and i will always like it..=)

uwaaaaaaaaa..rndu!!!!

::~suddenly ak xtau ckap omputih~::

haih..itu je yg mampu aku kta..nk kta apa lg..xreti omputih kn..prsan x previous entries aku?ada je slah BI..mals la ku..kdg2 bila menulis otak aku hantar mklumat ke tgn aku utk menaip bnda2 yg sedap di mulut aku ni aje..xde kira slah eja ke grammar slah ke..apa ke..yg penting, bila mulut aku bca, ayt tu dh ok..dh sedap..hahhaha..bongek..

stu lg tnda kepupusan bhasa omputih dlam diri aku adlah bila nk kna ckap ngn omputih..seboleh2nya aku ckap bnda2 basic je.hi.thank you. you too.xpun, kalu dh mlas than dewa-dewi, aku guna bhsa isyarat je..contoh kalu dia tnya arah, aku tunjuk je ngn tgn aku..klu lg mlas, bla dia tnya pape, aku geleng je kpala aku..pstu mta buka bulat2 skit..biar dia tau aku ni xtau omputih..hahhahaha..mlas..tp itu la aku..lg nk blik lg kronik thap mlas aku ni..camne ni?camne nk jd cikgu BI ni?cam xboleh je..

kalu tnya aku apa aku nk jd sekang ni?mstila aku jwab yg glamor2 je..contoh, kunun, nk msuk malaysian most beaituful..hahhaha..logik kah..tp aim aku ca simple je..biar pun xmng, org cam knal aku la..pstu cam ada org2 kya mnat kt aku..n dia propose aku n we live happily together..oppsss..omputih alert!!!!..tp itula..angan2 bodo ktakan..xpun, klu aku xmng pun, kot2 le boleh jd pngacara pape ke..kalu pebgacara tv, korg nk tau apa aku suka?pengacara mkan2 n pengacara yg g mkan angin..sgat hebat..smbil mkn n bercuti smbil bekerja..di samping itu, sentiasa kelihatan cantik..oooo GOD...itu hanyala mimpi..

tp aku rsa aku boleh kot jd baker..hahhaha..stu lg angan2 n cta2 aku..aku nk buka kedai kek..walaupun skang ni, aku xtau bt stu kek pun..tp cam aku slalu ckap, aku akn g bljar kt Batang Kali nnt..ak akn g sekolh msakan..hahhahhha..kta tggu sal bnda tu k..tp yg pntg, aku xmo ckap omputih..tp aku nk jd kaya..logikkah???

xpela..tu je nk tulis pun..c ya!!! =)

::~happy birthday mama~::

happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to u..
happy birthday to mummy..
happy birthday to u..
I LOVE YOU!!!

today is my mummy's birthday.. i love her very much..i love you mama. if i were in Gurun today, i can bake you a cake. (hahahhaha..i wish..but maybe it will be a much better idea if i BUY that cake)..hahhaha..xpe..niat ada je dh cukup..

alhamdulillah..rezeki mama thun ni bnyak..i'm happy for her..she deserves it.she deserves every thing that she has now..

mm..about my mama, people always said to me that i'm like my mother. we have more or less the same face n both of us are loud and always say what we want to say.(some people may call it unaccepted behavior for saying thing that we are not supposed to say, but i think it is better to say it out loud to the people than having say it at their back)

n, this is my mummy.love, huggs and kissess for you!!!

::~It's Malaysia-lah activity~::

yesterday was a big day for malaysian students who study in QUT..we had this function called Malaysia-lah event and it started from 10am until 4pm yesterday.i did not do much this year. i di not dance for this event.last year i di dance for tarian cina, joget and multicultural dance..tp cam this year, i prefer to not spoil the good scenery of the dance sequences by contributing my reckless dancing acts ..hahhaha..i'm bad at dancing..real bad..why?

• i have difficulties in coordinating my arm and legs movement. i always felt like i'm actually a robot or something that was born in human body..i did..
• i have difficulties in learning the dance steps..walau brapa kali di ajar pun, still akn lembab n ssh nk bt..ssahla!!!
• i have darah gemuruh when it comes to perform in front of others.. i can easily forget the steps that i rmember when it comes to the actual performances..so, because of these obvious reasons, i choose not to dance..=)

i went to the event quite late.. coz i had other things to do..n i was not very keen on the event itself because i was not feeling good..demam..i arrived late there.n when i arrived, lotsa people were already there and were already busied doing their things..aku xtau nk bt apa..so cam sbukan diri g menyembang..itula pertolongan aku..cra utk meramaikan org di khemah..it works okay..

tp, there was still someone who still refused to talk to me..i did not know why..we just did not speak to each other anymore..=(

tp cam xksahla..ok je..and we closed the event by celebrating puteri's birthday..sedap cake itooo..heheh=)HAPPY BIRTHDAY PUTERI

but, overall ok la..

but my day did not end just quite yet..tggu....=)

::~last presentation~::

i did my last presentation just now..and i have this kind of weird thing going on inside me..i hate presentation..I HATE PRESENTATION..i don't like to speak in front of other people..i just dont think that kind of assessment suits me..you know..i'm not the type of girl that speaks much..hahhahahha..i'm lying here..but you know what, i like to talk but not academically..i just don't see myself as the academic type of person..and the last presentation that i did in Australia was just a big disaster...yes..DISASTER!!!i'm not putting any hope in this one..so, okay la..hopelessly homesick ktakan..+)
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....nk blik

::~kECEWa~::

Sedikit waktu yang kau miliki
Luangkanlah untukku
Harap secepatnya datangi aku
S'kali ini ku mohon padamu
Ada yang ingin ku sampaikan
Sempatkanlah...
Hampa kesal dan amarah
S'luruhnya ada dibenakku
Tandai seketika
Hati yang tak terbalas
Oleh cintamu...
Kuingin marah, melampiaskan tapi kuhanyalah sendiri disini
Ingin kutunjukkan pada siapa saja yang ada
Bahwa hatiku kecewa...
Sedetik menunggumu disini, s'perti seharian
Berkali kulihat jam ditangan
Demi membunuh waktu
Tak kulihat tanda kehadiranmu
Yang semakin meyakiniku
Kau tak datang

p/s::lagu ini buat encik biskut yg suka tinggalin sya sndrian di sini::hahhaha

::~HOROSCOPE~::

DO YOU BELIEVE IN HOROSCOPE?DO YOU PLAN YOUR DAY BASED ON YOUR HOROSCOPE?I DO!!!I ALWAYS LOOK ON MY HOROSCOPE..IT'S NOT THAT I BELIEVE THEM BUT SOMETIMES, WHEN I DO NOT HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO DO, I'LL JUST LET MYSELF BELIEVE IN THE HOROSCOPE..I KNOW IT'S NOT GOOD TO HAVE THIS FALSE BELIEVE..BUT THAT'S ME..

TODAY MY HOROSCOPE READ AS:

The Bottom Line

Step out of reality today when you have the chance, -- check into your fantasy life!

In Detail

Step out of reality today when you have the chance, and check in with your fantasy life! It's been stuck on pause for far too long -- you need to get back in there and fill in some blanks. Dream about where you'll be in ten years, fantasize about who you will be with and what you will be doing. There is no harm in having the line between reality and fantasy blurred right now. In fact, it will make your reality all the more clear. Daydreaming can help your day go by!

HAHAHAHA..I KNOW.IT TELLS ME TO BE IN THE FANTASY LAND.. I DID VISIT THE FANTASY LAND MORE FREQUENT THAT I HAD IN THE PAST..I THINK THAT THE HOROSCOPE IS JUST LATE BY FEW DAYS. I DID ALL THE THINGS DESCRIBED IN TODAY'S HOROSCOPE FEW DAYS BACK..HAHAHHAA..I KEPT ON IMAGINING WHO WILL I LIVE MY LIFE WITH..WHO WILL I SHARE THE NEWS OF "I'M PREGNANT" WITH AND THAT SORTS OF THINGS..YOU KNOW..AND UNTIL NOW, ALL MY IMAGINATIONS ARE BLURRED..I DON'T KNOW THE FACES..I JUST SAW ME IN THE IMAGINATION. THE SURE THING WAS ONLY ME..

::~SEMPURNA~::

aihh..i've been wanting to write about this a long time ago..but i chose not to write it before because it was still fresh in the memory..because i did not want to further complicate things which were already complicated..and i think, this is the right time to write what i feel about this because, i believe, every one involved in this matter finally forgot what the matter was *hopefully*..it was just a misunderstanding..more from my side*guess so*..but the weird thing is i can't get this out from my mind..not that i don't want to but every time i want to forget it, new things come in the way and these things remind me back of the matter..not anyone's faults but it's just time is playing tricks with me..i don't even know why i've done a lotsa thinking about this matter recently..i can't help it.it just pops out of my mind and it stays there until i've finally got other things to think..i know, what i know and i know what i feel..but why can't this matter stays where it should stay???nowhere in my heart..i sometimes question myself with my actions, my thoughts, and even with the most complex thinking that i've done, i can't never break this matter into pieces and understand the whole bit of it..you move on from this..but i'm still stuck with it..

*am i that SEMPURNA?or is it just as song that you like*

i'll never know this kind of thing ..and for that, i really want to put this matter to rest..but, i should stop thinking about it first..and that's exactly what i'm falied to do!!!BUT, i'll do it

::~salam lebaran from Brisbane,Australia~::

hye all!!!it's been a long time since i last wrote in this blog..bukannye apa..busy sesangat..xde msa nk tulis2 blog..kranya option yg i ada tulis blog or buat kuih raya..so, hrusla buat kuih raya yg i pilih..i semangat sket buat kuih2 raya ni..walaupun i xtau bt bnyak pun..sekadar cornflakes beradu je..hahhahahahha..bengong...tp cam betul la..aku sibuk sbab buat kuih tu la..naik bengkak tangan ni bt cornflake tu..hahhaha..

smbil2 buat kuih, smbil2 saiko..saiko nk balik..memanjang mulut aku nk blik..nk blik umah..nk blik umah..nk balik umah.naik tuli sume org yg dgr rintihan tu..tp pape pn..smpi nk dekat seminggu raya pun still xblik2 jgk..yela..kalu ikut ati n balik, aku mmg xdtg sini dh..anta assigmnt online jela..xmampu nk beli return ticket..hahhahaaha..

nway, anther reason xnk blik adlah sbb dh last tyme dh rya kt negara omputih ni..xtau bila lgi aku akn ada kesempatan nk beraya kt luar ngra..kalu ada rezeki cpatla..kalu x, lmbt skit la..tp pape pun, aku xnk la miss the last moment beraya kt brisbane ni..sedey okes nk kna blik dh..tp ada jgk sbhgian diri aku yg dh tergedix2 nk blik..dh start pgkah2 kalendar dh..huahuahua..now, less than 2 months dh..td akran ckap, "ampa sedar x klu org tnya, bla nk blik?kta dh blh jwab, next month dh blik?"huhu..kejap je kn msa ni..tp pape pn can't wait to breath the air in Malaysia..huahuahua

so,d kesempatan ini, ak nk mnta maaf la kalu terksar bhasa dlm blog ni or kt luar..kdg2 mmg xsdr..laser je mulut aku..bukan apa..dh nature aku begitu..so sorryla ek..xmksdkn pun..

buhbye..selamat hari raya..