::break vs. clash::

humm.lately, aku senang2 je saiko.. n aku tau bila aku saiko, secara tidak langsungnya org lain pun akn trt terjejas ngan kesaikoan aku itu..tp bnda camni dh xblh nk elak..mcm wajib la saiko2 ni..tp yg pelik kan, saiko aku itu menyerang tym nk g kelas je..kalu xg kelas jrg la aku saiko..tp ada jugakla..i may look stronger on the outside but who knows exactly what is happening and churning inside my heart..only God knows..

humm, tp ari sabtu aritu aku ada la jgk melayan saiko aku di tepi sungai..ye, aku g tepi sungai brisbane n melepak kt situ almost an hour..xtau apa yg aku bt..tp mcm best je tgk air sungai tu..msa tu xde apa dlm kepala aku..aku rsa cam the weight has been lifted from my shoulder..tp cam mrah je la kn saiko theraphy aku..free ok..tnpa perlu mengeluarkan sesen pun..n yg plg pntg itu bt aku gembira..even just for an hour..i guess after this, hrus je berumah kt tepi sungai..hahahah..sungai itu happy...that's the bottom line.

umm, a friend of mine told me the other day simple analogy about break n clash..i thought i knew the differences but i guess i failed to comprehend these words..ok..analogy nye sng je..

• break is like the process that you take when you are commiting suicide..seperti yg digambarkan, mcm kelar2 tgn tu..let your wrist bleeds until you die..
• whereas, kalu clash pulak like you jump straight from the building n you suddenly die..no pain involved..i guess so..never tried and never will. (i'm talking about jumping from the building).

ok, see isn't it clear that the end "product" for both actions is "die"..i'm not suggesting that die equals to single and i believe neither does my friend suggesting it..cma, "die" tu mgkn symbolically means heartbroken..hehheeh..but earlier on, i did not believe him..so i said, i guess it's okay if we break because, even though you said that it's like you r in the process of commiting suicide, but there will always be hope..and my stupid idea as usual is hrus ada hospital..n if u r lucky enuff u will be sent to the hospital n get some treatment n you live again but with the "scar" of course..but it doesn't matter because you still be alive..but certainly in my case, there's not enuff ambulance to send me to the hospital n as a result (wahhhh ayt2 sains giteww), i'm left to bleed n i die eventually..=(..

humm, how's the explanation? does it help???..10q again U..